Floating Flame; a dissociation story

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Floating in
Floating out
Dissociation
Blackout

She sits
She stares
Not here
Not there

She’s in
She’s out
Can’t scream
Can’t shout

She’s fuzzy
She floats
Can’t breathe
Tight throat

Her head
It pounds
So heavy
Weighed down

Her hands
Like pins
So sore
On skin

She’s back
She’s forth
He pulls
Such force

He’s here
He’s there
Always gives
A scare

Dreams
To nightmares
He’s always
There

Memories
To flashbacks
Falling through
The cracks

She’s adult
She’s child
So tender
So mild

She’s strong
She’s weak
Can’t admit
Defeat

She’s warrior
She’s fragile
As memories
Unravel

She battles
She fights
Every day
Every night

She’s winner
She’s greater
Him
Her traitor

She’s falling
She’s floating
She rises
She’s glowing

She’s survivor
She’s fighter
Her flame
Shines brighter.

Thanks for reading
** Image courtesy of Google Images **

2 thoughts on “Floating Flame; a dissociation story

  1. Thanks for sharing! Your writing helps me to understand the magnitude of the damage done to you and your fellow sexual abuse victims. It’s hard to read at times, but I sincerely hope that with every post you write, you feel a measure of victory for reclaiming your voice: placing shame in it’s place – on HIM, and others like him! Keep using your powerful words to take back what was denied to you- your dignity and sense of self-worth… you deserve “beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment of praise instead of a heavy, burdened and failing spirit” Isaiah 61:3. Sending much love as you recover your birthright and rightful inheritance…you are dearly loved, wanted, and planned , and you are here for a wonderful purpose!!! It’s been so awesome to see you begin to believe that, and begin to move away from the dark lies that kept you bound up in a world of pain…💕Peace! Wisdom! Strength! Love! Joy!

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