Hear my cry

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Those of you that tell me
That I have a choice
Please stand up and listen
Listen to my voice

I’ll scream it from the roof tops
I’ll shout it to the sky
Until you understand
Until you hear my cry

Unless you have felt it
You really have no clue
Just how the pain and sadness
Inside begin to brew

There is no rhyme or reason
For when it rears its ugly head
Waking up one morning
I just want to stay in bed

The sadness starts to rise within
The anger takes it toll
The pain begins to hit me
Depression fills my soul

My abusers voices talk to me
Begin to play their part
Worthlessness fills my mind
Disgust fills up my heart

Bad thoughts all creep in again
They begin to troll
If I give in and let them
They will all take control

They make me want to hurt myself
Begin to control my brain
Tell me I must be punished
That I must feel the pain

The monsters sneak into my mind
They hurt deep in my gut
Sometimes I’m just not strong enough
I know I have to cut

Thoughts begin to fill my mind
They make me want to cry
I know I have to fight them
For they are telling me to die

I know I do not want to leave
Not deep down inside
It’s just that this gets really hard
I wish I had a guide

I’m scared to just stay in bed
For I know what you will think
You’ll think that I’m not trying
You won’t see me start to sink

It is the days I am so low
That I fight the hardest war
I stand and I keep going
But want to crumple to the floor

I’m frightened and I’m fragile
Lost inside my mind
I try to find my way back
Demons keep me so confined

It’s scary being trapped                                  Inside my own dark thoughts                      Knowing my thoughts and feelings            Are all tied up in knots

I cannot control it
Even though you think I should
Depression is an illness
I’d control it if I could

Please don’t tell me to be well
I wish that it were so
I wish that I were better
That these monsters would just go

Instead I need you to hold me up
To stop me falling down
Please help me stay afloat
Please don’t let me drown

So those of you that tell me
That I have a choice
Please stand up and listen
Listen to my voice

I’ll scream it from the roof tops
I’ll shout it to the sky
Until you understand
Until you hear my cry.

Thanks for reading
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