I know you have always been there, helping me put one foot infront of the other, but I have lost you.
You are always there inside me. You always guide me when I lose my way and carry me when I lose my footing. You keep me going even when I feel like I cannot take another step.
You keep me motivated, helping me move forward even when I think I can’t. You are determined to do the right thing and make it through this journey no matter how difficult the path may be.
I always reach for you to help me overcome things when I think I can’t, knowing that you are greater than any obstacle I face.
Sometimes I push you away and shove you back but you never leave me. You are the fiery passion within me, helping me face forward.
You are my inner strength and I need you now more than ever.
I am fragile and I am frightened and I am slowly giving up. This journey, the pain, the sadness, it is all too much to bear.
I need to dig deep and find you, for slowly I am breaking. The foundations that you helped me build are gradually crumbling away.
I have lost you and I am fading. I need your help. I am begging you. I don’t know how to do this without you.
There are no magic potions or fairy dust to magically get me through this. There is no-one to do this for me but me. So you see, I need you more than I ever have before.
I cannot go any further. I cannot take another step. I am not strong enough.
I know deep down that you are always there but now I need you to show yourself. For inside I am slowly dying. I am not sure I can go on. Please, don’t let my abusers win…don’t let them blow my candle out.
I am reaching for you. I am digging deep. Please let me find you now.
I know I will find you because the other choice is giving up. I cannot do that. I cannot let him hurt another child. I have to find you. I must.
I am weak. I have no strength left. I am fragile and I am breaking. But I know you will find me once again. You must. You are my whole foundation.
Breaking is inevitable but if I break I will get back up. For you, the strength that carried me this far, will take me the rest of the way.
I will find you, the strength I need. For that strength is inside of me. You always have been!
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