Hidden Roots

hidden rootsI wonder if you think of me

The way I think of you

Do you ever miss me mum?

The way I thought I missed you too

 

You never wiped my eyes for me

For you never let me cry

I really thought you loved me

But I think it was just a lie

 

I learnt to smile, I learnt to laugh

The way you always told me too

But pain was eating at my soul

As my heart began to break in two

 

My screams were always silent

I was held captive in your lie

Alone, hurting and broken

You just left my soul to die

 

I wish I could just hate you

For you pushed me out your world

With one word and in one moment

You completely let me down

 

You made me feel so worthless

Unwanted and unloved

I learnt not to expect good things

I leant to never trust

 

The ache in my heart grows stronger

It never goes away

They say time heals all wounds

But this one is here to stay

 

I shielded myself from the obvious

I ignored the blatant truth

For you are the one who hurt me most

My heart must learn to live without you

 

Family is where our story begins

It is where we all lay our roots

But as soon as you let him hurt me

My roots became destitute

 

My roots have nowhere to settle now

They don’t know where to lie

They are scared of getting hurt again

All they do is hide

 

My family is now broken

My roots are beginning to die

There is nothing left to hold onto

I have to say goodbye

 

For one thing that I know for sure

Is that my roots deserve to live

And while I still hold on to you

Pain you will always give

 

So I don’t know if you think of me

The way I think of you

With pain and sorrow in my heart

Wishing this were not true

 

And I don’t know if you miss me mum

The way I thought I missed you too

But one thing that I know now

Is my roots no longer belong to you

 

My roots yes they are hidden

Scared to let you go

But holding on just hurts too much

I have to let them grow

 

So I don’t know if you love me mum

The way I know deep down I loved you too

But I have to say goodbye now

And let my roots break through!

 

Thanks for reading

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