I wonder if you think of me
The way I think of you
Do you ever miss me mum?
The way I thought I missed you too
You never wiped my eyes for me
For you never let me cry
I really thought you loved me
But I think it was just a lie
I learnt to smile, I learnt to laugh
The way you always told me too
But pain was eating at my soul
As my heart began to break in two
My screams were always silent
I was held captive in your lie
Alone, hurting and broken
You just left my soul to die
I wish I could just hate you
For you pushed me out your world
With one word and in one moment
You completely let me down
You made me feel so worthless
Unwanted and unloved
I learnt not to expect good things
I leant to never trust
The ache in my heart grows stronger
It never goes away
They say time heals all wounds
But this one is here to stay
I shielded myself from the obvious
I ignored the blatant truth
For you are the one who hurt me most
My heart must learn to live without you
Family is where our story begins
It is where we all lay our roots
But as soon as you let him hurt me
My roots became destitute
My roots have nowhere to settle now
They don’t know where to lie
They are scared of getting hurt again
All they do is hide
My family is now broken
My roots are beginning to die
There is nothing left to hold onto
I have to say goodbye
For one thing that I know for sure
Is that my roots deserve to live
And while I still hold on to you
Pain you will always give
So I don’t know if you think of me
The way I think of you
With pain and sorrow in my heart
Wishing this were not true
And I don’t know if you miss me mum
The way I thought I missed you too
But one thing that I know now
Is my roots no longer belong to you
My roots yes they are hidden
Scared to let you go
But holding on just hurts too much
I have to let them grow
So I don’t know if you love me mum
The way I know deep down I loved you too
But I have to say goodbye now
And let my roots break through!
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