It’s hard to tell the difference

Between what I know and what I feel

I know the line is somewhere

But this all feels too surreal

 

The more I care, the more it hurts

Emotions break my heart

I hope to God I fall asleep

Before I fall apart

 

My head it spins in circles

I’m sad most of the time

For deep inside where nothings fine

I feel I’ve lost my mind

 

Faking a smile is easier

Than explaining feeling broken

Silence a cover for my pain

Words that just cannot be spoken

 

We all get addicted to something

That takes away the pain

But that starts to destroy us

From our body to our mind

 

Unexpressed emotions

Will never disappear

They only grow much stronger

Bringing with them greater fear

 

A day, a date, a name

Triggers they become

A feeling, a fear, a memory

Flashbacks make me want to run

 

The sadness hurts too much now

I want to break down, to be free

Instead I’m drawn to the blade

It helps me start to feel empty

 

I know it’s better to let the tears come

Than to keep it all inside

But the blade’s already drawing blood

Another battle I must hide

 

I’m tired of trying, of hoping, just coping

Trying not to fall apart

I’m tired of cutting, of using the blade

To ease my broken heart

 

Unexpressed emotions

Will never disappear

Unless I let myself feel them

To dissipate the fear

 

Unexpressed emotions

Will never disappear

But no matter how many times my friends ask

My mask I will always wear

 

Unexpressed emotions

Are beginning to break through

The blade it calls me near again

It is all I know to do

 

Unexpressed emotions

Are beginning to break through

But my answer will always be I’m fine

Even if not true

 

Unexpressed emotions

Will never ever die

I have to try and feel them

But I am scared that I will cry

 

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