I sit alone and wonder
How you could be so cruel
You were the man I called my father
You were the only one I knew
Was it always your intention?
To break my fragile heart
It was never to be mentioned
Day by day you tore my life apart
You deprived me of my freedom
That day you made me yours
You made me grow into a woman
My childhood was no more
You subjected me to mind games
You filled my head with lies
You tied me in invisible chains
You took away my life
A child so young and innocent
I was barely thirteen years old
I was under your imprisonment
I was under your control
Manipulation was your key
Your words I never questioned
I gave up trying to be free
That way the pain would lessen
You called me worthless, useless too
I was yours to control
No tears allowed, so there were few
Rules I would uphold
I had forgotten how to smile
Depression it consumed me
Every day another trial
Fear and sadness they entombed me
Knives and scissors were my friends
A comfort for my pain
My life I wanted them to end
To hide the guilt and shame
My body was no longer mine
You had left me broken
Bruises and scars will fade in time
But memories they are frozen
Telling the truth was not allowed
As you began to mold me
Excuses and lies I always found
Or else you would always scold me
You have left me beaten and broken
But somehow I survived
Now the strength inside me has awoken
It is my time to thrive
I will be your victim for no longer
For I will tell my truth
The voice I’ve found is becoming stronger
Much stronger than in my youth
I am not what you did to me
For I am not to blame
My body and mind that you took from me
Will no longer hold shame
Abuse is a crime, that crime is yours
The shame is yours to bear
My life is mine, not yours, not theirs
I will no longer live in fear
My body will begin to heal
My heart will become whole
Gradually I am breaking free
No longer under your control
Courage is my discovery
Bravery is my sword
This fight it is compulsory
A battle to end the war
Courage is my discovery
Bravery is my sword
Now starts my recovery
The opening of new doors
Courage is my discovery
Bravery is my sword
You have no power over me
I am no longer yours!
Thanks for reading
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“Courage is my discovery. Bravery is my sword.”
Just love that. Would make a great chorus in a song of your poem.
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It just came to me. Xx
Wasn’t sure about this piece but glad you like it.
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