A shadow the length of a lifetime.

CHILD ABUSE STOCK

The shadows are all the same colour

“It’s our little secret” they say

The demons are all the same colour

Telling no one they make us behave

 

My shadow he never disappears

My demon is always here

They are buried alive, creating fear

Bringing darkness as I want to shed a tear

 

My shadow never wants to sleep

My mind is just not strong

The demon all he is does is creep

Day and night he is never done

 

It is always worse when night comes

I try to run away in my dreams

But I am dancing with my demon

Dreams not as peaceful as they seem

 

There is no relief in waking

The shadows evil hands around my throat

The demon leaves me shaking

Screaming but the noise just won’t come out

 

My head is in a dark place

The shadow, he takes over

The demon he covers up my face

They give me a makeover

 

I scream but no one hears me

Let me out, I’m stuck in my mind

The shadow never frees me

The demon is so unkind

 

My shadow he destroys me

Taking my body, mind and soul

My demon he destroys me

Knife, scissors, and scars they take their toll

 

My shadow never leaves my side

Only hiding in the shade

He stays close to me while I chase the sun

I’ve always been his slave

 

I’m lost now in my head and heart

Why won’t they go away?

They keep on tearing me apart

They moulded me like clay

 

I’m shrinking into darkness

I want to make it stop

I’m not sure I am strong enough

My heart it might be locked

 

My shadow and my demon

They are one and the same

My shadow and my demon

They always cause me pain

 

My abuser is my shadow

He is my demon too

The pain he caused he will never know

I just wish it were not true

 

My shadow and my demon

They are now monsters in my head

But there was a time way back when

They were monsters under my bed

 

I wish this were a nightmare

So I could wake when it were over

Instead a million little demons

Stare back in one tiny little mirror

 

My memories are my shadow

They are my demon too

Flashbacks, triggers and the nightmares

They suffocate me too

 

My abuser took my childhood

Became my shadow, my demon too

All to increase his manhood

Oh I wish this were not true

 

My abuser is my shadow

He holds me like a chain

He cast me out this shadow

Always with me, bringing pain

 
My abuser is my shadow

My stepfather yes it’s true

Abuse, rape and aggression

He caused confusion too

 

My abuser cast my shadow

When I was just a little girl

My abuser cast a shadow

That destroyed my entire world

 

Child abuse it casts a shadow

That people just don’t see

Child abuse it casts a shadow

That shadow never leaves.

 

Child abuse casts a shadow the length of a lifetime.

 

Thanks for reading

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